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People fall off. But it's up to me to stay strong. Writing this post is making me realize that, I am overlooking what the fuck matters. I am overlooking my blessings, I am overlooking what I already have to something that I don't need. But fuck, it's just there and idk what to do about it. As a result I stay in a sucky ass mood all day because of something that's brought to the light that was always at the back of my head.

I'm Alright.

But I'm not.

I have such a GREAT couple of friends in my life, but it's like I'm yearning for more instead of cherishing wat is, instead of cherishing and holding on to what's right there, I'm reaching for the unreachable (is what it seems). Then that just FUCKS ME OVER.

Fuck man.

Sometimes I don't know how I come off to people. (<--"people" : that's the fucking problem!). What about me? !

I want something good too. But that's where patience comes in. I am pretty sure I'm not lonely. And It's contradictory of my complicated self that I feel alone (but I say I WANT to be, and then I be like Oh I want somebody).

Thaa Fugg!? >:O

I was definitely NOT feeling today.
I was just tired of...nuthing really.
Just wasn't in the mood for shit.
I'm sooo glad I have my homie Taylor.
But everytime I'm around him I'm constantly reminded of what I dont wanna be reminded of..
Nevertheless his company is priceless..
I just want something good.
Something valuable.

"Something that ends so easily was obviously never real to begin with"
(via Isaiah C. Shelton)