aw man.. I haven't posted on here in some months. God is definitely always who He is: AWESOME! So far this summer I've done Summer Summit and UCSD, got paid for it, paid to replace an important document, WENT ON A REVIVAL CRUISE! Ahh. I'm just so Blessed..

P.S...

I'm in love :)

shhh

My new hair do.

P.S. I got my eyebrows threaded for the first time yesterday.. ummm. #PAIN!!!

So things aired out with my roomates

Right now I'm having another strugglee

My last post talked about putting God first

and maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan I'm tellin you that gets hard..

I find myself frustrated and irritated by His teachings or whatever

Cuz I have my own personal feelings and logic about things

BUt i guess this is where I need the strength to grow more spiritually

He came thru on many other things

and even tho I say some things that we are "supposed" to do is unfair..

I guess it's unfair that I am questioning His word jus cuz he didn't come thru this time around

So right now I'm just irritated

cuz it hella hard to separate the flesh from the spirit

and thats wat I'm learning right now..

so

Imma just suck it up... and smile :)

K.

Thats all.

Paz

here i am again

feeling baffled

on a good note

i just turned 19

woot

i need a damn car

but everything is in line

as long i strive to put God first everyday

which is a struggle

cuz i seem to put my emotions first sometimes

well

idk

im confused

i never have beef with ppl

but my roomate wanna tell me some shit that she been holdn in stuff from me

so i cant wait to hear that

the other ones.. eh

i would honestly choose to live with other ppl

they click up

never again

anyway, i wont let that get to me

I'll buy my own shit

oon that note i need a car

that would make things soo much better

alot better

yeah, WAY better

i dunno... im in LA right now

and i feel like theres nuthin out here for me

like

its so sus

honestly.

i feel like i jus wanna start over

and meet a bunch of true, genuine people

like i really want my fam to move

but times are hard

been hard

ahh

i need to keep busy

but then i still love my down times sometime

u knw

we could all use that peace

keep praying.

Encourage each other to be fierce

Fierce in whatever you want in life

Fierce in believing in yourself

Fierce in finding God

Fierce in LOVE.

HAHA..

WORD.

"Without the Bread of Life, your toast!"

Thanksgiving with the fam is just too great.. ahhaha I'm having sooo much fun. I LOVE these people.. even though they have their times where they get on my last nerves.. but hey.. thats FAM! <3

I am KURRENTLY at work at the Mandeville Annex Art Gallery on campus. It's mad boring here. anyways...

Shame on what's going on in Korea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOW it's 2010

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/40329269/ns/world_news-asiapacific/

On a more positive note: SOCC was an experience. From missing the opening ceremony to Art Collective not performing to kicking it with the homies to driving for 4 hours on the freeway for the first time. IT was MAD cold in Santa Barbara but we stood in Solidarity with their community to protest against Hate crimes against certain communities.

On a random note: I really like this one guy but I feel like I shouldn't. So that's hella interesting enough. SMH .............yeah let's leave that alone LOL

On a fat note: THANKSGIVING is in a couple days!! I can't wait to eat aff mi face. ahhah

Homegirl KB shall be rollin wit me.!

AHAHh that's about it right now.....................

Mood: cuddly

Art.Collective. I LOVE US.

Dear Blog,

Sorry I've been neglecting ya :)

I've been well....

I'm still here, still praying, still giving thanks

I appreciate all that has came to me and all that I put forth to give

At times it may seem frustrating for a lot of crap that happens, but it's all apart of the test.. so I'm not even gon trip too hard hahha..

I DEF dropped this Genetics Class.. Professor was mad WACK CUH! On friday I went to her to invite her to my program Hughes Scholars Program event and her ass gonna say if I'm not with media services then she can't really talk to me. MEAN. She did not have to put it that way... thats why I dropped ur class UGLY

Anyways, she made me mad

Tonight I went to a hookah bar :) It was fun. I was skeptical at first cuz I dont like smoke but this one didnt stink or taste bad.. I tried puffing these damn O's but it wasnt working.. i made ONE though.. I was proud of myself.. thanks to my coach GUILLE lol...

Anyways, today was a GOOD day overall. I had fun at the beach with the homies, then Chipotle was good (fuhhh im hungry right now again lol); then took a bomb nap.

Church IN A FEW HOURS!

later <3

It is the worst feeling to do something you have little to no heart in doing..