SMH ..

So I have not been having the best of .. ANYTHING actually. I keep putting myself in a position where I'm set for failure. I haven't been making wise decisions and I end up getting disappointed in each outcome. But who is to blame ? ME, of course.

I've come to realize that the arrows point toward me, I keep trying to bend them, turn them away, but they stand sturdy. Now i must be able to handle my own inner-self, find who I am, find what I'm worth, that way I can say FUCK YOU to everybody while still being receptive, still having an open mind and heart that I already do.

We must repeat to ourselves: "I AM SOMEBODY". Never lessen yourself to the feet of others, because its truly not worth that shit. I need to trust my instincts because the majority of the time I am right about certain situations but I let the "fun factor" and the "oh, what the fuck, why not" get the best of me. This goes back to me making the right decisions, even though it might not be pleasurable for the moment. So that's definitely something I'm gonna try and work on.