Friday, October 30, 2009
Hey hey HEY LA
I'm soo stoked I'm going home today with the beatiful Ladies Julieanne and Elize ! I won't be back until Monday morning, prolly taking the train back, its all good. I'm leaving my boyfriend (my laptop) so I won't have any internet access sooooooo until then, PEACE :D
Thursday, October 29, 2009
My bestfriend KAMARA :D
Ride or Die muthafXckn beeeeetch ! ahah Til death do us part niggas !
Follow her on twitter.com/Kiimora hahaa
WE got maaaaaaaaad close since 9th grade. I actually knew OF her since i was in like 6th grade and she was in 7th grade, then I skipped a grade now we in the same grade. lmao. She thought I didnt like her smh . BUt Fuck wit us nowwww bitches ! I'll run a bitch over for her, im tryna get her to fight lmao . Get wit da chocolates !! ahah Love you Kamara !!!!!!!!!!!!!
Us in 9th grade. LMFAOOO . We thought we was pahpin !
10th grade:
11th grade:
Senior yr:
Follow her on twitter.com/Kiimora hahaa
WE got maaaaaaaaad close since 9th grade. I actually knew OF her since i was in like 6th grade and she was in 7th grade, then I skipped a grade now we in the same grade. lmao. She thought I didnt like her smh . BUt Fuck wit us nowwww bitches ! I'll run a bitch over for her, im tryna get her to fight lmao . Get wit da chocolates !! ahah Love you Kamara !!!!!!!!!!!!!
Us in 9th grade. LMFAOOO . We thought we was pahpin !
10th grade:
11th grade:
Senior yr:
My Bestfriend Tray (1 of 2)
I LOVE the shit outta this foo... soo so so soooo dearly. He understands me completely. We've been close since 11th grade. Had fallouts, I'm glad to say that we are beyond that. We've grown so much and I love sitting back and watching him mature .. become a better person... he still has his bad habits .. but thats JUST TRAY lol. I can always talk to him about any fucking thing. It's ridiculous, and he tells me everything too. I just love him so freakin much, I hope to see him get married, have kids, be successful. I want to be there for him when he needs me, a friend. Okay that's it for now :) I love you Tray <3
Gettin his abercrombie and fitch on lmao .
Gettin his abercrombie and fitch on lmao .
Well well well...
I thought about the EX-FACTOR today. I'm not in a relationship or about to be in a relationship so this post is fine. I still care about his life. I doubt we're gonna get back together, he has some growing to do, no offense. We all have growing to do. Here's a old pic of the good ol days ahahha .
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Reflection
Today was koo... it got awkward (to me) between me and this one person but it's just something Imma have to get used to. I dont wanna be fake, but then I dont wanna be mean. So imma just do me. After my encounter with the vendor lady (great way to start the day btw) I was just breezing through the couple of classes I had, then I had to like straight BULLSHIT my Communications homework assignment that was due at 7pm. 32 pages of reading? I dont think soooo.. On top of that I was in a meeting (for the Hughes Scholars Program) from 6-7pm so I was trying to work on that during the meeting. I ended up not submitting my assignment til like 7:30. Oh well, it was something. I was actually thinking of not doing it at all.
Now I'm home, chillin under my blanky :) Eating kettle corn, posted up on twitter <--Follow me. Aim and facebook, kinda bored too =/
Now I'm home, chillin under my blanky :) Eating kettle corn, posted up on twitter <--Follow me. Aim and facebook, kinda bored too =/
White Vendor Lady
So today I approached the lady I mentioned in my post below..and of course she was white. I handed her the UCSD Principle of Community paper and said: "I would just like for u to read over this and please don't bring hate speeches on our campus". Then she went on to say how it wasn't a hate speech and she's a nice person and a "sweet piece of pudding" SMFH. Then she says it's America and she can say what she wants and "she's offended that we are offended that she offended us". So I said to her, you can't talk to a student on this campus like that because that's just wrong and inappropriate and she shouldn't take what happened with some high school kids and generalize the whole black race. I told her was ticked me off was when she said "I hope your race gets better". She said she's just telling the truth and that that's just a FACT. Woahh hold the fuckkkk up ladyy. Then she starts rambling talking about she's not black and she could never raise black kids and all this other bunch a bullshit.
She's basically playing the victim when she CLEARLY attacked the African American freshman student with her hate speech. I told her you can't talk to a student like that because how do you expect them to feel, and she says she's entitled to her own opinion and if she wanna say she despise black people she can, basically saying that would be OK. No the fuck it aint bitch. So I got really mad, but I contained myself. I told her please keep that off our campus and thanks for telling me her side of the story. I have witnesses to everything that went down, one an important person who was in charge of getting the vendors on library walk and my roomate was also there. The students of involvement coordinator told me they are trying to get her booth removed from campus and they'll make sure she does not sell anything on our campus from here on out. BUT as I was leaving class, her ass was still there. But I just walked right on pass. I felt like I took ACTION today. If anybody sees anything hate crimes or social injustice, please SPEAK UP !
She's basically playing the victim when she CLEARLY attacked the African American freshman student with her hate speech. I told her you can't talk to a student like that because how do you expect them to feel, and she says she's entitled to her own opinion and if she wanna say she despise black people she can, basically saying that would be OK. No the fuck it aint bitch. So I got really mad, but I contained myself. I told her please keep that off our campus and thanks for telling me her side of the story. I have witnesses to everything that went down, one an important person who was in charge of getting the vendors on library walk and my roomate was also there. The students of involvement coordinator told me they are trying to get her booth removed from campus and they'll make sure she does not sell anything on our campus from here on out. BUT as I was leaving class, her ass was still there. But I just walked right on pass. I felt like I took ACTION today. If anybody sees anything hate crimes or social injustice, please SPEAK UP !
So this is what the fuck I wake up to. Written by Fnann, a 3rd yr at UCSD. SMFH
Fellow UC San Diego Community Members,
I would like to bring to your attention a situation that occured yesterday Tuesday, 10/27 around 2:30pm on campus during the vendor fair on library walk.
Here is the testimony of a fellow student's encounter with a vendor:
"I was at venders market on campus looking at the various bracelets and necklaces at the “$2 for everything” booth, and about 6 to 7 African American high school students came and stole a bunch of the vender’s merchandise and walked away. After realizing the theft, the vender begins a conversation with me talking horribly about African Americans, mind you that I am African American myself. She begins by telling me that from the very second “those black kids” came to her booth, she knew they were going to steal from her. She says that every time she allows "those people" and "that race" to enter her shop they steal from her. The vender further elaborates her feelings and tells me that she can allow “20 Asians and 20 Mexicans” to be alone at her booth but if there are three blacks alone, every last one of them are going to steal from her. She also claims that "that race" is what makes "her race” racist again people. She goes on to say that soon she will not allow any "of those people" to shop at her store and that she is about ready to shave her head and paint a swastika sign on the back of it. So I drop what I was going to buy from the vender and I tell her "I hope your day gets better" she responds with "I hope your race gets better". Seriously broke my heart."
These actions and comments are not things a student on this campus or anywhere should ever have to hear or deal with, let alone a first year (from an already underrepresented mistreated group) in their first quarter of college. We are reporting this as hate speech, will be talking to those who organize the fair to make sure this lady is never allowed to come back and that vendors are also held accountable to UC San Diego's Principles of Community.
If you disagree with these comments and actions, as we do, we suggest you avoid her vendor booth and not support her booth, again her booth is located on library walk between the Chancellor Complex and the Career Services Center and is labeled "$2 Everything" (bracelets, earrrings, necklaces, etc.). We will also be dropping off a copy of the UC San Diego's Principles of Community at her booth later today, if you feel strongly on this issue we suggest you to also drop off a copy, or make a statement to her that you will not support her because of her racist comments, so she knows UC SAN DIEGO will not deal with that kind of treatment to our students on our campus! Please keep in mind that we do not want to harass the lady, just for her to understand that it was unacceptable and will be acted upon.
PLEASE SPREAD THE WORD.
We appreciate your support.
In solidarity,
Concerned Student
I would like to bring to your attention a situation that occured yesterday Tuesday, 10/27 around 2:30pm on campus during the vendor fair on library walk.
Here is the testimony of a fellow student's encounter with a vendor:
"I was at venders market on campus looking at the various bracelets and necklaces at the “$2 for everything” booth, and about 6 to 7 African American high school students came and stole a bunch of the vender’s merchandise and walked away. After realizing the theft, the vender begins a conversation with me talking horribly about African Americans, mind you that I am African American myself. She begins by telling me that from the very second “those black kids” came to her booth, she knew they were going to steal from her. She says that every time she allows "those people" and "that race" to enter her shop they steal from her. The vender further elaborates her feelings and tells me that she can allow “20 Asians and 20 Mexicans” to be alone at her booth but if there are three blacks alone, every last one of them are going to steal from her. She also claims that "that race" is what makes "her race” racist again people. She goes on to say that soon she will not allow any "of those people" to shop at her store and that she is about ready to shave her head and paint a swastika sign on the back of it. So I drop what I was going to buy from the vender and I tell her "I hope your day gets better" she responds with "I hope your race gets better". Seriously broke my heart."
These actions and comments are not things a student on this campus or anywhere should ever have to hear or deal with, let alone a first year (from an already underrepresented mistreated group) in their first quarter of college. We are reporting this as hate speech, will be talking to those who organize the fair to make sure this lady is never allowed to come back and that vendors are also held accountable to UC San Diego's Principles of Community.
If you disagree with these comments and actions, as we do, we suggest you avoid her vendor booth and not support her booth, again her booth is located on library walk between the Chancellor Complex and the Career Services Center and is labeled "$2 Everything" (bracelets, earrrings, necklaces, etc.). We will also be dropping off a copy of the UC San Diego's Principles of Community at her booth later today, if you feel strongly on this issue we suggest you to also drop off a copy, or make a statement to her that you will not support her because of her racist comments, so she knows UC SAN DIEGO will not deal with that kind of treatment to our students on our campus! Please keep in mind that we do not want to harass the lady, just for her to understand that it was unacceptable and will be acted upon.
PLEASE SPREAD THE WORD.
We appreciate your support.
In solidarity,
Concerned Student
To follow up..
To go along with my first post ("SMH"), Rev Run could not have said it ANY BETTER.. this is exactly how I felt:
"Ppl treat u like u treat urself.. u'll get ONLY what u TRULY expect"
--Just thought I'd share that.
The Mind of Chevelle--Time for me to share some feelings/words/thoughts.
(Finding Inspiration) ..
Maybe I should turn from Lil Wayne.. k.
Song on replay: Drake--closer to my dreams
Balled up a knit of unsolved problems, untouched feelings, unforgiving promises...I stand
I'm working on myself right now, Constantly trying to be a better person everyday.
I must be emotionally weak, standing with what seems to an impermeable wall..but look closely..there are tiny holes ... holes that are open to love, sensitivity, joy .. tranquility.
I walk with my swag so high ... but my heart so low. . but still thumping on...striving for life .. seeking answers. It's never easy to keep treading on to what seems like never-ending, as if falling into a pit of darkness. To our eyes, this maybe what it seem like, but HE has a plan for each and everyone of us. Take life as it's given. Cherish that shit, live that shit, BE that shit. SHow life through your presence .. be there for someone else. Happiness cannot be achieved through solitude. We must stand in solidarity with one another.
BE CONSISTENT. I personally dont like "sometimish" people .. that just wanna pop in ur life then pop out as they please. It doesn't even have to be anything major u feels ? Just show some concern.
TO END: What moves you? Surround Yourself With Positive People. Tween out ALL that try to bring you down in life: mentally, socially, academically, physically, emotionally. All my BRuTHaz out there, you guys are tied to GREATNESS. Let no one take that from you. All mY SisTAhz, we are created for EXCELLENCE, and think NO LESS of yourselves. Be thankful for everything you have, for you never know what you have until it's missing. Appreciate all the blessings G0d has showered on you. Take some time to do self-reflection. Be aware. The vision of your future might be blurry, just know G0d has something in store for you.
--> I need to listen to ma own damn words.
Maybe I should turn from Lil Wayne.. k.
Song on replay: Drake--closer to my dreams
Balled up a knit of unsolved problems, untouched feelings, unforgiving promises...I stand
I'm working on myself right now, Constantly trying to be a better person everyday.
I must be emotionally weak, standing with what seems to an impermeable wall..but look closely..there are tiny holes ... holes that are open to love, sensitivity, joy .. tranquility.
I walk with my swag so high ... but my heart so low. . but still thumping on...striving for life .. seeking answers. It's never easy to keep treading on to what seems like never-ending, as if falling into a pit of darkness. To our eyes, this maybe what it seem like, but HE has a plan for each and everyone of us. Take life as it's given. Cherish that shit, live that shit, BE that shit. SHow life through your presence .. be there for someone else. Happiness cannot be achieved through solitude. We must stand in solidarity with one another.
BE CONSISTENT. I personally dont like "sometimish" people .. that just wanna pop in ur life then pop out as they please. It doesn't even have to be anything major u feels ? Just show some concern.
TO END: What moves you? Surround Yourself With Positive People. Tween out ALL that try to bring you down in life: mentally, socially, academically, physically, emotionally. All my BRuTHaz out there, you guys are tied to GREATNESS. Let no one take that from you. All mY SisTAhz, we are created for EXCELLENCE, and think NO LESS of yourselves. Be thankful for everything you have, for you never know what you have until it's missing. Appreciate all the blessings G0d has showered on you. Take some time to do self-reflection. Be aware. The vision of your future might be blurry, just know G0d has something in store for you.
--> I need to listen to ma own damn words.
Sip on this bowl of lyrics and melody.
Not all the words are correct, whoever who made this. All good though :) SING ALONG ! :D
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
SMH ..
So I have not been having the best of .. ANYTHING actually. I keep putting myself in a position where I'm set for failure. I haven't been making wise decisions and I end up getting disappointed in each outcome. But who is to blame ? ME, of course.
I've come to realize that the arrows point toward me, I keep trying to bend them, turn them away, but they stand sturdy. Now i must be able to handle my own inner-self, find who I am, find what I'm worth, that way I can say FUCK YOU to everybody while still being receptive, still having an open mind and heart that I already do.
We must repeat to ourselves: "I AM SOMEBODY". Never lessen yourself to the feet of others, because its truly not worth that shit. I need to trust my instincts because the majority of the time I am right about certain situations but I let the "fun factor" and the "oh, what the fuck, why not" get the best of me. This goes back to me making the right decisions, even though it might not be pleasurable for the moment. So that's definitely something I'm gonna try and work on.
I've come to realize that the arrows point toward me, I keep trying to bend them, turn them away, but they stand sturdy. Now i must be able to handle my own inner-self, find who I am, find what I'm worth, that way I can say FUCK YOU to everybody while still being receptive, still having an open mind and heart that I already do.
We must repeat to ourselves: "I AM SOMEBODY". Never lessen yourself to the feet of others, because its truly not worth that shit. I need to trust my instincts because the majority of the time I am right about certain situations but I let the "fun factor" and the "oh, what the fuck, why not" get the best of me. This goes back to me making the right decisions, even though it might not be pleasurable for the moment. So that's definitely something I'm gonna try and work on.
