End It.

The seeds of imperialistic judgment have us all rooted in deep issues

Issues beyond our control, beyond what's humane

End war all around the world

End injustices that keep us from progressing towards God

End all that is evil.. all that is unjust.. all that is.. lust

We lust for danger

We lust for power

We lust for institutional discrimination societal condemnation individual systemization

We become divided on what we shall ultimately fall on

WE become unveiled to the rotten insides that must be cleansed

Only by HIS blood

Bombs..dropping

Children.. dying

The innocent faces of the future my people we need our soldiers!

Our soldiers of tomorrow to carry our legacy to the ends of time

Our legacy

One of entwined complexities, unjust deaths you see, struggles of HUMANITY

Stand up as a people

Multi-ethnicities captivated by the commonality of justice for all people

My injustice is your injustice

My peace.. is your peace

Redirecting. . [...]

I cant even write.....................

Formulating ideas of what am I really worth and who I really am is not an easy thing to do

How do I go about doin ghtat

GOD

that seems to be the answer to everything

Its not that hard to find out

So why don't I just do it

I let stuff get to me way easily

I need to set boundaries and standards for myself to set a concrete ground to stand up

I am growing

I can't be wasting time on petty things that don't really matter

Well they seemm to matter to me at that point

But i just to keep in the back of my head the bigger picture at all times

REDIRECTION

redericting my focus on ME.

ME

Who am I

It hurts...

Its a part of life

Why can't we just have a gift box that says "Open when you are ready to find who you are"

At least he was right

So who am I to feel bad

Back away so I can become one with myself

Back away so I can manifest all that's in me

Personally I think it take situations and experiences to do that

And this just might be one of them

A wake up call

Get busy

LOOK for things to grow.

FIN.

.HOLD ON.

But what is there to hold on 2?

False hope?.

Patience, come to me.

Her throat tightens, refusing her to breathe .

Under pressure of identity conformation she instills her own creation;

Her own creation of who she is, and what she will not be .

How can she let go of what she thought valuable, when all she wants is to fight for it .

Internal battles of despair and doubt..she stumbled .

Stumbled upon the answer to the question she's been long awaiting her back turned from against the wall and she faced it ...

She had the power, she had the control, she had the wisdom, she grows .

She stepped backwards, still facing the wall .

Her heart quickens at the thought of what she might step into: puddles of faith, holes of joy and unbroken happiness she dug for, clouds of comfort ..

She stumbled .

Before taking that step she must face what's on that wall .

A mirror; A reflection of who she is and what she embraces; A reflection of her worth and how she shines; A reflection of her eager soul that cries; A reflection of..her.

The answer lied within her .

She spoke to the mirror and received no reply, and then it hit her: Make one with the Most High

For He is in every bone, every molecule, every blood vessel that runs through her veins. He knocks at the doors of her heart and she opened it with a crack, releasing a beam of light . She knows and she believes ... she opens the door wide.

She smiles and the heavens rejoiced for His child made it back home. Her throat loosens, and she begins to breathe..

Each day she continues to take a step backwards with growing faith and trust .

Each day she is reminded that she..is loved.

"Stand outside this evening. Look at the stars. Know that you are special and loved by the One who created them."

This is exactly what I needed to hear right now. I haven't been really feeling the love from who I'm giving my love to.. Maybe I'm not doing enough.. So I'm left feeling like shit basically because of whatever circumstances that I am trying to understand. This has been eating me up the past couple weeks, and I don't know what to do.

Chill out? Leave it alone? Be assertive? Let it go?

I reaaaaaaaaally want to keep holding on, and I'll do my best. We are not obligated to each other I guess but I don't like feeling as if it's up in the air. My heart aches for his. What will it take.. Patience?

Complete 180.

dont EVER try to change who I am .

I will be ME regardless .

dont FORCE me to do anything .

let me BE .

i like doing stuff on my own time, which I guess could cause problems here and there.

However, I'm not rushing life . Just looking forward to it. Growth . Experience . =)