12/12/09

Welp, today is 2 days from my big 18, but I don't have anything planned. I don't even have my hair done right now. But I'm tryna look on the brighter side and jus be thankful 4 life and where my place is 2day. Today I did hair, even tho I wasn't rly feeling like doing it at first. However, I am blessed and got paid $100 instead of $75. My client told me she rly appreciated it and that made ME feel appreciated. I am honored that I am able to make people feel better about themselves, have a higher self esteem, just throught my talent of braiding hair. Even though I didn't get my hair done 2day, I was still happy I got to please someone else.

As of lately, I've been trying to get right spiritually, and realize that there is way more to life than beating up myself on shit that don't even really matter. Years from now, I'll look and think, wow that was a waste of my time. However, NO REGRETS. All experiences are worth it for me growing into a better person everyday. We live and we learn. Emotionally I will still be scarred until I am exposed to greaterness, til I have my own, something good, something worthwhile. My client told me 2day, whenever I'm missing that Happiness, it's God that I'm missing. She told me to stay close 2 my Bible because that's where I'll find Peace. Those were some true words that I will take with me, forever basically. I've met soMe new church folks from this Christian group on campus that I plan on attending more often. It is always nice to find another family base to connect with, to keep me grounded, to make me feel appreciated.

I am REALLLLYY realizing how blessed I am evryday, and I think that's the first step towards me becoming happy with who I am and for me to not worry about the small stuff :-) The more I focus on myself, family, and getting to know God more, the less I think about insignificant things. Maybe that should be my New Years Resolution lol.

I will be 18 on Monday December 14. YAY ! Finallyyyy though. But no rush. By the time I blink imma be 30 and shit. NOT POPPIN` !. So I'm just trying to enjoy my time and rest of college years (going by hellllllllllaaaa quick smh)