My oppression statement.

I am underrepresented... but I still represent my race despite the consumed assumptions of inferiority. And I wont be shattered by those stares and feelings of not belonging, because I do have a place here. Deep from my pits I spit this shit cuuuz my mental thoughts over-power my physicality ... my hospitality shattered but .. I wont be battered. I just pick my self up and move on. I am excellent. I am worth more. Mi bettah dan dat .

EH .. !

Smh, so I'm sitting in this boring ass Comm class.. but I don't wanna leave because I'm thinking, fuck i had to pay for this shit... and OH shiT..its a class for my minor. lmao . who the fuck gives a lecture on games in a communications course about communication and the individual? Cmon son .. get the fuck outta here with that shit son.

ANYWAYS... this weekend is fuckin SOCC !! BEeyAtch ! I'm hella turnt and ready for that shit ! Art collective bout to RUN That shit Saturday 7pm . We have a BOMB ASS performance lined up and it encompasses many emotions, many identities, many souls fused into one. WE DA SHIT !

Re-CAP .

Soo this is what I had last night . Minus that white stuff . (P.S. I got this image from google so clear ur heads of that white stuff, which may be salt). I had like three shots plusss some Moscato and whatever else I was over there drinking. It takes 3 shots to fuck me up. So I was mos DeF mad turnt. HOWEVER, I didnt like the fact that some people were mad trippin out on me. I wont mention any names. LIKE WHat The FuCK dude. Do you have a fuckin prollem with me? So that made me irritated, didn't kill my buzz tho! ahha . FUCK YOU is all I had to say...that was just mad weird, like I might say something and they might look at me like "smh" or like I need to go somewhere. Get me? I wasn't feelin it .. SO I try to avoid shit like that before my mouth says something not very nice. Cuz I don't give a fuck when I'm turnt. AHA . I remember shit moving in slow motion. Fucking Julieanne was talking to me, she sounded like she was talkin to me from the end of a hallway and shit . Too funny . and weird. My head started spinning when I got home and I wasn't feeling too good. I tried laying down and closing my eyes, and that shit got worse lmao . So i went to get some water and was jus up for a lil bit, then I finally fell asleep. For some STRANGE ASS reason my ass woke up a like 6:30 am and I didnt even go to sleep til like after 2. WTF ? lol . I was mad at myself cuz I couldn't go back to sleep. FUCK .

ANYWAYS today is ART COLLECTIVE rehearsal at 12. I'm mad feeling that shit. Everybody is sooo talented. I wanna take a group photo. We're dope ! SOCC aka Students of Color Conference is this weekend and is our first big project...we'll be performing there Saturday 7 pm in PC . I'm excited for that shit. I need to memorize these lines. What IS it like?! lol . but yeahhh. I'm bout to be out for now. Later folks.

Convo b/w me and Taylor. I love his soul . Insight to how i feel.

cHevY 2hiGh 11:54 pm
lols
soo i think i have mood swings .
ahah
i feel weird .
T562Baller 11:55 pm
why
T562Baller 11:55 pm
whats wrong?
cHevY 2hiGh 11:57 pm
like i could be all happy and all over the place at one point and at the next i kinda dont wanna talk to anybody or like i isolate myself .
i do that ALOT .
T562Baller 11:57 pm
thats pretty weird
u gotta try to keep things constant
cHevY 2hiGh 11:58 pm
and i think thats hypocritical of me cuz i always say all i want for people to do is be consistent with me..when i cant even be consistent/constant with myself.
cHevY 2hiGh 12:01 am
get me ?
T562Baller 12:01 am
u gotta make sure you're good chevelle
like 4real
i worked on myself for a long time & i feel like im finally gettin it right
and it feels good
and u can definitely do the same thing for you
u just gotta want it
just thank that dude Jesus all the time
thats what i try to do
when im havin problems, when im good, when im sad, no matter what im bein thankful & im tryin my best to stay that way
it's all about effort
cHevY 2hiGh 12:03 am
yea but my conflict is, is that just the way I am and I should accept it ? or wat can be done? idk .. =/
T562Baller 12:04 am
dont accept any negative shit
that shit is not you
focus on what's going well in your life & hold on to it
and if there isnt anything, just know that it's gonna come to you
cHevY 2hiGh 12:05 am
okay ..
T562Baller 12:05 am
u gotta believe that it will, and sooner or later it will yo
you're a loving, caring, fun person chevelle
and i admire that about u
so just try to remember that u have an effect on everyone you interact with
cHevY 2hiGh 12:07 am
ur making me cry
T562Baller 12:07 am
lol
dont cryyyyy
be happy yo
cHevY 2hiGh 12:07 am
too late
T562Baller 12:07 am
i dont want u to cry! wtffff
cHevY 2hiGh 12:07 am
its not a bad thing.
im jus sensitive like that
T562Baller 12:08 am
oh
but yea man just be cool man
shit's gonna be alright
u just gotta know it
beyond all reason & understanding
EVERYTHING is gonna be alright
cHevY 2hiGh 12:09 am
:-) thanks

What I'm feeling.

Confused.

Irritated from being confused .

everybody go read this shit. i love real ass people

The homegirl Elize blog.

http://lifeofelize.blogspot.com/2009/11/so-this-may-seem-oxymoronic.html

TREY FUCKING SONGZ .

Fuckkkk ... I'm melting . Sooo fine. I AM SO JEALOUS !

Halloween Weekend.

WOWW this has been the most interesting weekend ever ! Loooads of funny shit . lmao .
So Friday I was jus being goofy with my lil cuzzins. Saturday I WASTED my whole fuckin day almost at the damn hair shop then my aunty didnt do my hair. GRR. So now I'm walkin around nappy headed. I'm bout to do this shit myself . WATCH. I'll keep you posted.

Anywaysss after that I went to rehearsal with kamara, met some kooool people. Koolest of all: Jakeem. He's gay and he kissed me ! Omg, it was soooooooo random and like outta nowhere lmfao. I love his life. He's the cutest shit everrrrr. Saturday night we dipped to West Hollywood to hit up this parade, which was like a freakin gay parade. All the BOMB ASS, FINE ASS dudes are gay =( man . What that leave me wit?? lol . FAWK . That shit was funny as fuck. I touched a Tranny's butt implants lmaoooo . I HAD TO ! I asked for permission and he/she was like "You can touch whaaateverrr you waaant" lmaooo. OMG I saw this one tranny in some TIGHT ASS coochie cutters and I kid u not his peng peng was hangin out the siiide .... ughhhhhhhhh I was highly disturbed smh lol.

Suuuundayyy I made some cheeeese doin haairr :D Cheaa ! Then went to a show at the Celebrity Center where the homies were performing at. It was koo. Some people did not need to be on that stage. Names shall be kept confidential lol. After, we went to this all gay kickback. Me and kamara were the only biologically proven females there lmao . SO we're in a group of grown ass gay ass men. THEY WERE KOO AS FUCK !! I had maaad fun with them. WHyyy the fuckkk were they sitting in a circle playing concentration lmao . "Concentration is the game, keep the rhythm, OR YO ASS GON HAVE TO DRINK" lmaoo . OMg, I would re-live that again ahhaha . Oh yes, they were alll black, except one. LOl. Most of them were sexy as fuckkkk, I had to say to myself man why are yu gayyyy lol. OVErALL my weekend was FUN AS FUCK. Now back to dry ass san diego =/